I dont expect them to leave me and never come back. Close as we are, I suspect I will see them alot. But, I also know it wont be the same. My little one promised me last night while sitting on my lap watching tv that he would try and grow up as slow as possible. LOL
I dont know, maybe Ill be ready for them to leave by the time they are old enough. Weekend visits may be plenty. For now, I want them here. Not raised by some crazed freak of a kidnapper.
I may also have a little anxiety due to the relationship, or lack thereof, with my father. I saw him last night for the first time in over two months. It will probably be that long or longer before I see him again. I never want my boys to feel that way.
I know Ive said this before, but you will see soon. Life changes in a big way and I know my attitude and outlook on things changed even more, still are changing, since I had kids. You think you know what love is, but you really dont know what unconditional love is until you have them.
Dont take that wrong. Just stating my opinion Fabs.
